No

I'm just sitting here, staring at my piece of technology, my piece of technology staring right back at me. No mails anymore, no messages, no gifts. I go back an hour ago, when things started swirling in my mind.

Seeing you seeing me has put thoughts in my head
It's provoking.
It's not helping.

I was sitting there, staring at the tele, the tele staring right back at me, when all of a sudden my neat piece of art-mobile started ringing. "Withheld," it said. I pressed the phone against my cheek, only to hear nothing but silence. I hollered a couple of times, with only silence replying right back at me each time. I start having thoughts in my head. "Is it really you?" I asked myself.

I honestly just wished I could stop all of this with a snap of a finger. I honestly just wish this will all go away. I honestly just wish this had happened never. Cause you're killing me.

The silence you gave me drove me insane. That insanity led to me killing what I had left in me, my beliefs, my principles. It killed everything, but memories of you.

I just wished it'd killed you too.

It might have never been you, it might just be me hoping that it was you.

And don't lie to me, I know you want it just as bad.

You can't lie to me, remember?

I need to stop all this

Exceptions

I can't believe that I initially decided to ditch the idea. I must have been high on something.

What a night, can you believe this? I'm speechless, I truly am. The serenity in this darkness, the beauty in this silence, I bet you there's a lot of mist around all of us. I'm speechless.

Sometimes, you need a little darkness for some things to stand out. Tonight is one of the times we do this.

I feel like pulling out my hair, I can't fucking believe this. Fucking unbelievable.

Hold me down, sweet and low

In the background all I hear is the subtle sounds of a beloved band. They sound so good, so mellow, it fits to this night like coffee does with creamer.

Let's peer out of my window, shall we, hon?

Lets',
I love you

Convulsions

I sit here, thinking, if it ain't for what happened 2 years ago, I'd never be where I am right now.

They all say that every cloud has a silver lining. I never got to see that point when everything happened. Clouds just looked like, clouds to me. No silver linings, just dark heavy angry clouds, awaiting for the best possible moment to unleash it's fury.

Now, looking back, I find this irony in what I see. It brings like a, chuckle to me. A grin of some sorts.

I've been able to see things much clearer. I've been able to understand so many things I was once oblivious to.

I've been able to understand myself more.

And we were having so much fun just now. Laughing at jokes, poking fun, enjoying a wonderful meal. I was asking myself,"Would all of this be the same after we get busier?".

Sometimes, it can be hard to know what's right from wrong. What's the right way to react, what's the wrong way.

I feel weird now. I think too much have been going on.

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

I know everything will be alright

I know everything is alright

Under The Stars

It's a beautiful night, don't you think? The wind's whispering it's way through the night, and lamps are giving off vapour as an indication to the night's cold.

Streets have emptied themselves, everyone's gone home to their loved ones.
Roads feel lonely, their dearest rubbers are parked in the garage after a long day of tar-smooching.

You feel this sudden lightness in the air. The music's slowed itself down, stripped naked to it's bare essentials of vocals, strings, silence.

You hear the waves crashing lightly on the shores, seaweeds getting a free ride to and fro. You look up to the Heavens to see little specks of glitters thousands of years old.
You're resting your head on something flabby. And you're edging closer to the source of my life, where your name has been carved on, where there's only room for one, and you're currently occupying it.

You look at me, me gazing at you. "You'll be the one occupying it from now on," I say to you.
You snuggle up closer, and we feel the 2 bodies conjoining itself. The physical attraction gives me this warmth, your smile's like my haven.
You're something I've never felt before.

Peck on the forehead,and rest on my shoulders. "Don't ever leave me."

I won't, promise.
Don't you too.
I won't, promise.

A Haunting

I've been seeing you.

I know you've been seeing me too. I saw it

It's been 2 years.

I can't go back again, I can't go back again
I say to myself

Yet, whenever this happens, my tummy feels haunted by your presence.

What is it about you?

I hate you, I fucking hate you

But, the more I see, the more I look for these kind of sightings.

Yet, the more I see, the more I refrain myself from it

We were never alive, and we won't be born again. But I'll never survive with dead memories in my heart.

I don't need these sightings anymore, so you should fuck off.

I know you were looking at me too. I saw it.

I've moved on.