Pseudo

With the memories and all, lessons are learnt too. Memories evoke the subconscious. Or maybe it's the subconscious that evokes the memories?

However,

no matter how painful memories can be, remember, at the end, it's pseudo. Not unadulterated. These memories, as much as they exist in your head, it only exists there. Not in reality. No where else.

Now,

it's easy saying this from a writer's seat, not a victim's seat right? Well, have you forgotten about my speciality? I specialise in first hand experience. This is the boy talking to me now. Listen. Slow your time down, and take a moment or 2. Open up, and just grasp your surroundings, and silent them.

Now, now.

"Memories are the ones that kill someone the most, only when they wish to forget something that's beyond their reach, things that can only be part of their memories, nothing more. So much less than what they crave for."

Testify to that. It's been seen all around. The "thing" you want the most is an entity, and that can be gotten rid of easily. But the perpectual configuration of the human brain allows us to capture everything we see. Yes, everything. We only remember the ones that signify something. The ones that are meaningless, or are yet to signify anything? It's captured by the subconscious, and then thrown away. Now, all you have is just snapshots. But the harmless little snapshots are the ones that can kill.

You see, when you are in a relationship, the memories both of you share are priceless. However, you won't remember everything. Until when something unfortunate happens, the things you don't recall so quickly are the ones, when flashed in your mind, that makes you gasp for air, choking you, and pounding your chest. All you can do is just hang in there, or end it. Many choose the second option. That's the easiest after all. But this is when I come in and reason out this post.

You see, in life, memories are the ones that, as mentioned, can save, or kill someone. However in the unfortunate event, because of the pain, many get scarred by the effects of the memory and do one of these few things:

1) End it

2) Live with it

3) Get scarred and phobia-ed by it

4) Ignore it

And many that aren't strong enough mentally get the 3rd option. They get scarred by it and live with the fear of it happening again to them. That's why they "isolate" themselves from society.

Now, if you were to think that I'm singling out just this particular group of people, you're so wrong. It's not what they want, but it's what they can't face. That's why they choose to let it control their lives. For the rest of their lives, they run away from encoutering such a situation, blocking all sources of help, blocking out the one thing that has kept everyone of us alive till this very day:

Love.

Nah, I don't blame them. Who else can they trust, they must be asking themselves. "What? Let another come in and ruin me again?" one might ask.

Well, my answer,"If you never try, you'd never know."

Yeah, go ahead and ponder all you want about what can be, and what could have been. Will that bring you anywhere to the place you wanna be deep down in you? NO.

We always get burnt by fire, and never dare to play with it again. Well, since you've already been burnt, why don't learn from it, and make ammendments to ensure minimal burn and maximum warmth? Why instead that than to never play with fire again?

Remember, memories, it's pseudo. Life, love, family, partners, these are the ones that are unadulterated.

And now,

We can't let something that does not exist run our lives, now can we?