The Morning Of Summer

I'd wanna lay in bed with you, for the whole Indian summer. And when I'm asleep, if my hands are too heavy, please, I'll say, remove them to feel at ease. I'll do the same, except I won't move it, even if it's cramping my back. & I"ll stay in that position for as long as you are asleep, even if it's for 1, 2, 5, 12 hours. And all I'll ask in return, is for you to to kiss me with your morning breath the first thing you're awake. Give me the best morning kiss, with your warm fresh breath. Really, that's all I ask for.

cause i'm a romantic, and i believe in the beauty you hold when you're closest to me. in the smell of your hair, in the warmness underneath your shirt. I, am a romantic, baby;

Dark Swirls

I was just thinking to myself, that nothing much makes sense anymore. That all the psychosis that surrounds us is nothing more than an interpretation of life, and the madness of it all.

But life is indeed, beautiful. It's painful, healing, dark, full of colours, intimate, careless.


I knew too much. That's what someone said. Yeah, it's true. I knew things that didn't need to be told. It's a part of me that will never die, I'd say. Cause ever since I was a little boy, I saw things many didn't. Instead of laughing with the whole group I'd always be more interested in seeing someone in a corner, sobbing to himself. And it made me more interested in knowing why it was as such. And there was always a part of me that wanted to approach this person. Cause I knew, that this person was different from the rest. But somehow, I could never manage to do it.

Afraid, scared. I didn't want to be ostracised from the normality. I was always afraid of being different, but somehow I realised that you can't change who you are. You can only change the way people look at you. I learnt to be more forgiving to those "peasants" who never quite understood where I came from.

But somehow, when you try to help someone they just push you away. Because, they fear you knowing too much. They get afraid by this sudden invasion of their shell, the one they've been inside for a long, long time. Yet, I've always been drawn to these types. Maybe it's because I always wanted to be that knight in shining armour for them. And painstakingly, one by one, I realised, it was hurting me more than it was them. Cause, they were comfortable being that way. I then learnt, that you can never change anyone, but only accept them for who they are and what they have to offer.

I, have a lot to offer. I've been saying this time, and time again. And I never want to change for anyone. I, want to be accepted for who I am.


It was a mistake, a big one, to have told you all those stuff I did that night. Cause looking back, if you really had cared, you would have stayed up listening to me cry, and wiping the tears that was dampening my cheeks. Instead, you just went away, while I was sitting there weeping my heart out to you.

It was a mistake, one of the biggest I've made. It made me feel cheap.

And now, it makes me see that, as much as you're a beautiful character, you couldn't be there for me.

Tsk, I should not have made myself feel so cheap.

Go on, I've seen enough. Just know, I would have never done that, not to my worst enemy.


And here I am, living my life the way it always has been. This life chose me, I'm just gonna deal with it. I ain't fighting it no more. Cause, I know what I want. That, I'm gonna fight for.

I'm a dark, and bittersweet person. It is never gonna change.