Poetry Emotion

Love letters; It's been ages since I've ever written one. With the technology available, letters have started to have the letter "e" in front of it.

It's been pretty funny, these couple of days. Not only has it been difficult, it's been, exciting in a way. I've been busy deciphering my feelings and actions, to find out the cause of all these uncertain feelings. I've definitely found out what's behind all the commotion in my head.

Cross my heart hope not to die

You see, it's one thing to find out the cause of all this. People will say that it's a first step, but I don't want to stop there. I'd like to go one further by looking at how I can possibly better the situation I'm in.

Then the unnamed feeling, it comes alive

It has been years since I've ever written a love letter. Honestly, I feel that those weren't anything close to love letters, but you tend to say this when time passes. Definitely though, I'm sure my that understanding of this universal term all use, when they see 2 people being united as one, has grown. It has definitely not filled up till it's brim, I'm not close to that too, but at least now, I can understand more than I once did.

Then the unnamed feeling, treats me this way

Here it goes, my letter to you:

I hope I won't scare you off with this. I'm honestly pretty horrible at these things, so be kind.

It has been weeks since we've been in indirect company with one another, one day for a week. Honestly, it feels as though that one day of being there isn't enough to fulfill this insatiable appetite I have to see you. It feels weird cause, we've never spoken to each other, I hardly know you at all, but you have given me a need. A need, to see you.

It's weird cause, we barely know each other and yet, I think of you at every possible moment. It's not the funny, and often misused word "love", it can't be because we hardly know one another, yet, you have given me this craze about you. What is it about you that makes me feel this way towards you?

It's everything about you. Your reserve attitude, you perfect looks, your detailed appearance, everything. From your hair that curls down, to your braces that shine your smile, to your cardigan that never seems to leave your upper body. It's everything about you.

And yet, you might wonder why, if I have been feeling this way all along about you, I haven't even took the chance to speak to you? It's because, you make me feel inferior. It is something that's rare because, no one has ever made me feel inferior; People stereotype me for the big confident guy who fears and works under no one, yet, it's when I'm around you that I feel this way. I feel so much smaller, so much human than I usually do around others. You're tall, but I'm sure it's definitely more that just your height. I can't put my finger on it, I simply don't know why.

I'm the opposite from you, talkative and imperfect and lousy in the things I do. I'm so afraid to even say hi to you. You don't scare me, but I feel so nervous when I see you looking at me. You are one of the few that make me feel inferior, and its something rare because I'm always the dominant looking one.

I feel very low in confidence when I contemplate approaching you. I feel that, someone like you, you would never talk to a person like me. You make me feel human, you like a goddess. You make me feel small, that you wouldn't even look at me. You have glanced when I'm looking, but it's just that, glances, and nothing more. You make me feel that I'm just another Jack on the street.

Who am I to you? you might ask. I'm no one, but you're definitely someone to me. Deep down I doubt you hardly feel the same way about me. It would be a little painful, it would, but it's warranted by the fact that we don't know anything about each other.

I feel so ridiculous writing this, I don't know if I should even send it out.

All I want you to know is that, you're definitely someone to me, stranger.

Take care, and hopefully I don't freak out when I look at you after sending this out, and hopefully you don't make me feel any smaller than I already do after you've read this.

See you next week, and the week after, and the week after.

Most Sincerely

Ravinder(feeling human for once) Singh

Then the unnamed feeling, takes me away